Shumica e njer\u00ebzve kujdesen t\u2019i p\u00ebrmbledhin memoaret, rr\u00ebfimet dhe p\u00ebrvojat e jet\u00ebs s\u00eb tyre. Sa m\u00eb p\u00ebrket mua, rr\u00ebfimi im ka tjet\u00ebr dometh\u00ebnie. Vlera e tij nuk mb\u00ebshtetet n\u00eb emrin e autorit, as n\u00eb oratorin\u00eb e gjuh\u00ebs, as n\u00eb bukurshkrimin e tij e as q\u00eb dallohet si rr\u00ebfim i rrall\u00eb e i ve\u00e7ant\u00eb. At\u00eb e dallon realiteti. Aty shfaqet rr\u00ebfimi i jet\u00ebs… aty shfaqet rr\u00ebfimi i udh\u00ebzimit… pik\u00ebsynimi m\u00eb i lart\u00eb i ekzistimit.<\/p>\n
Nuk e kam t\u00eb domosdoshme t\u00eb kujdesem p\u00ebr mendimet dhe bindjet e t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve e as t\u2019i detyroj ata t\u00eb pajtohen me mendimet dhe p\u00ebrvojat e mia personale, por besoj se e kam t\u00eb drejt\u00ebn t\u2019ua tregoj mendimin tim, e pastaj e drejta e tyre \u00ebsht\u00eb t\u00eb nxjerrin ndonj\u00eb konkluzion.<\/p>\n
Sikur plot t\u00eb tjer\u00eb, edhe un\u00eb e ndieja se q\u00ebllimi dhe vlera e jet\u00ebs ka t\u00eb b\u00ebj\u00eb vet\u00ebm me k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsit\u00eb e p\u00ebrkohshme q\u00eb njeriu i realizon, prandaj fillova t\u00eb flijoj \u00e7do gj\u00eb, t\u00eb shtrenjt\u00eb e t\u00eb lir\u00eb, q\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrmbushja d\u00ebshirat dhe k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsit\u00eb e mia.<\/p>\n
\u00cbndrra ime kufizohej tek arritja e d\u00ebshirave shpirt\u00ebrore, t\u00eb cilat ishin m\u00eb t\u00eb shtrenjtat q\u00eb un\u00eb dhe moshataret e mia donim t\u2019i arrinim. E harxhonim koh\u00ebn dhe pasurin\u00eb, e shfryt\u00ebzonim autoritetin, madje, m\u00eb e keqja, e sakrifikonim m\u00eb t\u00eb shtrenjt\u00ebn q\u00eb ka femra, turpin dhe virtytshm\u00ebrin\u00eb, q\u00eb t\u00eb arrinim plot\u00ebsimin e d\u00ebshirave t\u00eb shpirtit.<\/p>\n
Bisedat telefonike, fjal\u00eb simpatie dhe dashurie, shk\u00ebmbimi i mesazheve dashurie me djem, madje edhe takime n\u00eb kat\u00ebr sy llogariteshin sukses dhe arritje. Me besnik\u00ebri<\/em> n\u00ebnkuptonim t\u00eb bashk\u00ebpunoje me shoqen n\u00eb shk\u00ebmbimin e numrave t\u00eb celularit dhe kontakteve, lavd\u00ebrimin e saj para djemve dhe sugjerimin e saj q\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebhej e dashura e ndonj\u00ebrit prej tyre.<\/p>\n Arg\u00ebtimi p\u00ebr mua ishte shum\u00eb\u00e7ka, madje ishte gj\u00ebja m\u00eb e mir\u00eb q\u00eb e kaloja koh\u00ebn dhe i harxhoja dit\u00ebt e jet\u00ebs sime. Dhoma ime ishte p\u00ebrplot revista dhe gazeta t\u00eb grumbulluara. Jo pse kisha d\u00ebshir\u00eb t\u00eb merrja dije dhe kultur\u00eb, por m\u00eb duhej t\u00eb isha n\u00eb hap me koh\u00ebn dhe t\u00eb shkoja rrug\u00ebs q\u00eb ato vizatonin.<\/p>\n Me ora t\u00eb t\u00ebra q\u00ebndroja para televizorit. M\u00eb rob\u00ebronte pamja dhe m\u00eb t\u00ebrhiqnin ndodhit\u00eb e ndonj\u00eb filmi ose serie. Mahnitesha me trim\u00ebrin\u00eb e bukurin\u00eb e aktorit ose m\u00eb t\u00ebrhiqte v\u00ebmendjen ndonj\u00eb fustan, fjali dashurie e pasioni.<\/p>\n B\u00ebja pjes\u00eb n\u00eb radh\u00ebt e atyre q\u00eb rregullat dhe p\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebsit\u00eb e fes\u00eb i shihnin si pranga dhe rob\u00ebrim q\u00eb i cenojn\u00eb t\u00eb drejtat, i kufizojn\u00eb lirit\u00eb dhe nd\u00ebrhyjn\u00eb n\u00eb realizimin e d\u00ebshirave. Mu p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb, ata shtiren si budallenj, kinse nuk i njohin mir\u00eb, por ka raste kur marrin guximin t\u00eb kund\u00ebrshtojn\u00eb haptazi, t\u00eb pretendojn\u00eb se feja ua ngushton jet\u00ebn dhe shprehin pak\u00ebnaq\u00ebsi me rregullat e fes\u00eb.<\/p>\n T\u00eb gjitha sulmet dhe talljet me mbules\u00ebn e femr\u00ebs myslimane q\u00eb sot disa gra i shprehin haptazi, jan\u00eb manifestim i k\u00ebtyre pik\u00ebpamjeve dhe bindjeve q\u00eb i kan\u00eb p\u00ebr fen\u00eb.<\/p>\n Kur i shihja fetar\u00ebt e p\u00ebrkushtuar, meshkuj e femra, qeshja me ironi dhe thosha me vete: \u201cSa t\u00eb mjer\u00eb q\u00eb jan\u00eb! Sa pik\u00ebpamje t\u00eb keqe e t\u00eb zez\u00eb q\u00eb kan\u00eb p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn! Si jetojn\u00eb me k\u00ebt\u00eb bindje dhe jepen pas k\u00ebtyre iluzioneve? Bukuria, k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsia dhe shoq\u00ebrimi jan\u00eb fjal\u00eb q\u00eb nuk ekzistojn\u00eb n\u00eb fjalorin e jet\u00ebs s\u00eb tyre, madje ndoshta nuk e din\u00eb as bot\u00ebkuptimin e tyre.\u201d<\/p>\n Po ashtu thosha me vete: \u201cSi e p\u00ebrballojn\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb jetese? Duket sikur e jetojn\u00eb me zor!\u201d Madje, nganj\u00ebher\u00eb, kur nuk gjeja p\u00ebrgjigje p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb enigm\u00eb t\u00eb ngat\u00ebrruar, m\u00eb sillej n\u00eb mend se k\u00ebta njer\u00ebz vuajn\u00eb prej problemeve shpirt\u00ebrore dhe gjendja e tyre dallon nga njer\u00ebzit normal\u00eb.<\/p>\n Zemra ime nuk kishte hap\u00ebsir\u00eb p\u00ebr k\u00ebta njer\u00ebz. Ajo ishte e hapur krejt\u00ebsisht vet\u00ebm p\u00ebr yjet e artit, yjet e kinematografis\u00eb dhe yjet e sportit. Tek un\u00eb dhe shoqet e mia kriteri i par\u00eb dhe i fundit p\u00ebr t\u00eb ndjekur dik\u00eb ishte fama e tij. Ai q\u00eb kishte fam\u00eb, p\u00ebr ne ishte yll. As e merrnim parasysh rac\u00ebn, gjinin\u00eb, vlerat e tij ose di\u00e7 tjet\u00ebr.<\/p>\n E till\u00eb ishte jeta ime. Ky ishte jet\u00ebshkrimi im, derisa Allahu deshi t\u00eb m\u00eb udh\u00ebzoj\u00eb me mir\u00ebsin\u00eb dhe bujarin\u00eb e Tij. M\u2019u shfaq flakadani i udh\u00ebzimit, i cili ma ndri\u00e7oi rrug\u00ebn p\u00ebrpara. P\u00ebr mua filloi jeta e re, nd\u00ebrsa pas vetes e lash\u00eb rrug\u00ebn e arg\u00ebtimit dhe d\u00ebfrimit t\u00eb kot\u00eb.<\/p>\n Dr. Muhamed ed Duvejshi<\/p>\n Nga arabishtja: Irfan JAHIU<\/p>\n (Pjes\u00eb nga libri: \u201cE TILL\u00cb ISHTE JETA IME (Memoaret e nj\u00eb vajze)” \u2013 i p\u00ebrkthyer n\u00eb gjuh\u00ebn shqipe)<\/p>\n <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Shumica e njer\u00ebzve kujdesen t\u2019i p\u00ebrmbledhin memoaret, rr\u00ebfimet dhe p\u00ebrvojat e jet\u00ebs s\u00eb tyre. Sa m\u00eb p\u00ebrket mua, rr\u00ebfimi im ka tjet\u00ebr dometh\u00ebnie. Vlera e tij nuk mb\u00ebshtetet n\u00eb emrin e autorit, as n\u00eb oratorin\u00eb e gjuh\u00ebs, as n\u00eb bukurshkrimin e tij e as q\u00eb dallohet si rr\u00ebfim i rrall\u00eb e i ve\u00e7ant\u00eb. 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