Kisha nj\u00eb ndjenj\u00eb se rruga e epsheve \u00ebsht\u00eb e lezetshme dhe e vazhdueshme p\u00ebr krejt jet\u00ebn. Ajo dehja e epsheve m\u00eb jepte asi ndjenje se kjo rrug\u00eb nuk p\u00ebrfundon asnj\u00ebher\u00eb.<\/p>\n
Por, tani kuptova se kjo rrug\u00eb qenka e mbuluar me rreziqe t\u00eb dynjas\u00eb dhe ahiretit. Kam qen\u00eb d\u00ebshmitare e disa rasteve kur \u00ebsht\u00eb njollosur nderi i disa vajzave, madje jeta tyre \u00ebsht\u00eb shnd\u00ebrruar n\u00eb mjerim. Prej atyre rasteve po theksoj:<\/p>\n
– Rasti i par\u00eb:<\/em><\/p>\n Nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb kontaktonte me nj\u00eb djal\u00eb n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet celularit. Bisedat shpeshtoheshin e ajo k\u00ebnaqej q\u00eb fliste me princin e \u00ebndrrave dhe t\u00eb dashurin e jet\u00ebs. Prej bisedave kaluan n\u00eb takime. Filluan takimet t\u00eb shpeshtoheshin dhe, sipas terminologjis\u00eb s\u00eb tyre, k\u00ebto takime llogariteshin \u201ct\u00eb pastra\u201d, pra, takime q\u00eb nuk arrinin deri n\u00eb kontakt intim. Nd\u00ebrkaq, sipas bot\u00ebkuptimit islam, k\u00ebto takime s\u2019kan\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebjn\u00eb me past\u00ebrtin\u00eb dhe \u00e7ilt\u00ebrsin\u00eb, sepse ato jan\u00eb t\u00eb ndaluara.<\/p>\n Dit\u00ebt kalonin dhe erdhi dita q\u00eb vajza t\u00eb martohej. Me martes\u00ebn e saj do t\u00eb fillonte nj\u00eb jet\u00eb t\u00eb re: jet\u00ebn bashk\u00ebshortore, jet\u00ebn e \u00ebndrrave, jet\u00ebn e qet\u00ebsis\u00eb dhe lumturis\u00eb. N\u00eb mendje i sillej ideja se u p\u00ebrsh\u00ebndet me t\u00eb kaluar\u00ebn e saj p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb: p\u00ebrjetoi t\u00eb gjitha k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsit\u00eb e mundshme e tash e qet\u00eb mund t\u00eb nis\u00eb jet\u00ebn e saj t\u00eb re.<\/p>\n Nuk kaloi shum\u00eb deri kur e befasoi realiteti i s\u00eb kaluar\u00ebs. Veprimet e saj kishin l\u00ebshuar rr\u00ebnj\u00eb q\u00eb nis\u00ebn t\u00eb reflektonin. Martesa e saj nisi t\u00eb rrezikohej p\u00ebr n\u00eb shkat\u00ebrrim. Djemt\u00eb q\u00eb i takonte dhe k\u00ebnaqej me bisedat e tyre para martes\u00ebs, jet\u00ebn e saj martesore e kuptuan si mund\u00ebsi q\u00eb t\u00eb merrnin prej saj at\u00eb q\u00eb nuk arrit\u00ebn ta merrnin para martes\u00ebs. I b\u00ebnin shantazh me bisedat e m\u00ebhershme q\u00eb i kishin ruajtur n\u00eb celular se do t\u2019i shpalosnin para burrit t\u00eb saj. Mor\u00ebn guximin prej saj t\u00eb k\u00ebrkonin at\u00eb q\u00eb nuk e kishin k\u00ebrkuar m\u00eb her\u00ebt, sepse tanim\u00eb nuk kishte penges\u00eb. K\u00ebrkonin prej saj t\u00eb kryenin marr\u00ebdh\u00ebnie intime me t\u00eb.<\/p>\n Para vetes ajo kishte dy zgjedhje: t\u00eb ballafaqohej me realitetin dhe t\u00eb refuzonte k\u00ebrc\u00ebnimin. K\u00ebshtu, do t\u00eb rrezikonte t\u2019i shpaloseshin kartat e s\u00eb kaluar\u00ebs dhe t\u00eb shkat\u00ebrrohej familja. At\u00ebher\u00eb do t\u00eb duhej t\u00eb dilte nga sht\u00ebpia duke bartur me vete keqardhjen dhe dhembjen, sepse burri nuk do t\u00eb pranonte q\u00eb ajo t\u00eb vazhdonte t\u00eb ishte streha e tij ku ai e gjen qet\u00ebsin\u00eb dhe e ruan nderin. Do t\u00eb duhej t\u00eb kthehej te sht\u00ebpia e familjes e posht\u00ebruar dhe me siklet n\u00eb shpirt, t\u00eb q\u00ebndronte e vetme me mendimet e saj dhe me shpres\u00eb se ndoshta do t\u00eb vinte ndokush ta martonte at\u00eb s\u00ebrish.<\/p>\n Zgjedhja e dyt\u00eb ishte t\u2019i p\u00ebrgjigjej presionit dhe k\u00ebrkes\u00ebs s\u00eb tyre, pavar\u00ebsisht q\u00eb e urrente me shpirt k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb, me mendimin q\u00eb t\u00eb kap\u00ebrdinte nj\u00eb gll\u00ebnjk\u00eb nga gota e f\u00eblliq\u00ebsir\u00ebs dhe imoralitetit e do ta mbyllte dosjen e k\u00ebsaj tragjedie p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb. Por, m\u00eb von\u00eb, do t\u00eb vinte dita kur kjo got\u00eb do t\u00eb shnd\u00ebrrohej n\u00eb arm\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb rrezikshme sesa q\u00eb ishte, nd\u00ebrsa ajo do t\u00eb mbetej peng i saj, sepse k\u00ebrkesat e tyre vazhdimisht do t\u00eb rriteshin…<\/p>\n – Rasti i dyt\u00eb:<\/em><\/p>\n Doli n\u00eb takim fshehtas prej familjes me nj\u00eb djal\u00eb. Takimi dhe bisedat mes tyre ishin n\u00eb haram. Njer\u00ebzit i v\u00ebrejt\u00ebn dhe e lajm\u00ebruan prindin. U befasua nga ajo q\u00eb e pa. Gjith\u00eb ai burr\u00eb i madh e i fort\u00eb nuk gjente fjal\u00eb t\u00eb fliste. Gjuha iu lidh. Shpresonte q\u00eb m\u00eb mir\u00eb t\u00eb ishte n\u00ebn dh\u00e9 sesa ta shihte vajz\u00ebn e tij n\u00eb at\u00eb gjendje.<\/p>\n E mori vajz\u00ebn e shkoi n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi. Me t\u00eb arritur n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi, n\u00ebna p\u00ebr pak sa nuk thoshte: \u201cAh, sikur t\u00eb kisha vdekur para k\u00ebsaj (ngjarjeje) dhe t\u00eb isha harruar krejt\u00ebsisht!\u201d<\/p>\n Rasti filloi t\u00eb p\u00ebrhapej te njer\u00ebzit andej-k\u00ebndej, t\u00eb shtonin gj\u00ebra e t\u00eb pak\u00ebsonin ca t\u00eb tjera, t\u00eb shpifnin e t\u00eb p\u00ebrflisnin. Vajza u b\u00eb me nishan t\u00eb zi te familja dhe akrabat\u00eb e saj, p\u00ebr shkak se i ishte n\u00ebnshtruar pasionit dhe epshit n\u00eb haram, pa i menduar e pa i peshuar gj\u00ebrat mir\u00eb.<\/p>\n – Rasti i tret\u00eb:<\/em><\/p>\n Nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb tjet\u00ebr tregon p\u00ebr veten dhe vuajtjet e saj: \u201cJam nj\u00eb vajz\u00eb n\u00ebnt\u00ebmb\u00ebdhjet\u00ebvje\u00e7are. N\u00eb vitin e par\u00eb akademik n\u00eb universitet, sa her\u00eb q\u00eb shkoja e kthehesha nga universiteti, rrug\u00ebs takoja nj\u00eb djal\u00eb. Secil\u00ebn her\u00eb kur m\u00eb shihte, m\u00eb p\u00ebrsh\u00ebndeste. Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb ndodhi rast\u00ebsisht t\u00eb takoheshim n\u00eb nj\u00eb vend publik. U takuam shkurt, por ma mbushi shpirtin me ndjenjat e jet\u00ebs. Ato \u00e7aste ma mund\u00ebsuan t\u00eb ndieja kuptimin e jet\u00ebs. Dikur i dham\u00eb bes\u00ebn nj\u00ebri-tjetrit p\u00ebr martes\u00eb. E k\u00ebrkoi dor\u00ebn time dhe b\u00ebm\u00eb marr\u00ebveshje p\u00ebr fejes\u00eb (por ende nuk kishim b\u00ebr\u00eb kuror\u00ebzim). Mu dukej se po i jetoja dit\u00ebt m\u00eb t\u00eb lumtura t\u00eb jet\u00ebs sime.<\/p>\n Pas nj\u00eb kohe pat\u00ebm kontakt intim dhe e humba virgj\u00ebrin\u00eb. M\u00eb premtoi se do t\u00eb martoheshim sa m\u00eb par\u00eb. Pas k\u00ebtij takimi p\u00ebr disa muaj u zhduk nga jeta ime…, derisa nj\u00eb dit\u00eb u shfaq n\u00ebna e tij dhe m\u00eb lajm\u00ebroi se fejesa jon\u00eb kishte marr\u00eb fund. Me t\u00eb p\u00ebrfundoi edhe jeta ime. M\u00ebrzia nuk m\u00eb ndahej nga syt\u00eb. Jetoja n\u00eb nj\u00eb burg t\u00eb err\u00ebt e t\u00eb mbushur me keqardhje dhe dhembje. Nuk dua q\u00eb dikush t\u00eb m\u00eb thot\u00eb se me kalimin e koh\u00ebs un\u00eb do ta harroj at\u00eb dhe sprova do t\u00eb kaloj\u00eb. Si mund ta harroj personin q\u00eb i dhash\u00eb \u00e7do gj\u00eb dhe, n\u00eb fund, m\u00eb b\u00ebri t\u00eb ndihem e pavler\u00eb, si asgj\u00eb.\u201d[1]<\/sup><\/a><\/p>\n – Fundi i vonsh\u00ebm:<\/em><\/p>\n Me koh\u00eb u binda se kush merr k\u00ebt\u00eb rrug\u00eb, medoemos ajo do ta \u00e7oj\u00eb n\u00eb shkat\u00ebrrim. N\u00ebse nuk d\u00ebnohet n\u00eb dynja, assesi nuk ka mund\u00ebsi t\u00eb shp\u00ebtoj\u00eb n\u00eb ahiret. Ata q\u00eb p\u00ebrjetuan \u00e7do qejf dhe d\u00ebshir\u00eb epshi n\u00eb haram, n\u00ebse nuk i sheh t\u00eb nd\u00ebshkohen n\u00eb dynja, mos mendo se do t\u00eb shp\u00ebtojn\u00eb, sepse ata i pret fundi i dhembsh\u00ebm q\u00eb i b\u00ebn menj\u00ebher\u00eb t\u00eb harrojn\u00eb \u00e7do k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsi q\u00eb p\u00ebrjetuan n\u00eb dynjan\u00eb kalimtare.<\/p>\n Enes ibn Maliku tregon se Pejgamberi \ufdfa ka th\u00ebn\u00eb: \u201cN\u00eb Dit\u00ebn e Kiametit sjellin nj\u00ebrin prej banor\u00ebve t\u00eb Xhehenemit q\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb se gjith\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt ka p\u00ebrjetuar t\u00eb mira n\u00eb dynja. E fusin nj\u00eb her\u00eb n\u00eb Zjarr, e pastaj e nxjerrin dhe i thon\u00eb: \u201cO biri i Ademit, a ke par\u00eb ndonj\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb? A ke p\u00ebrjetuar ndonj\u00eb begati ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb?\u201d Ai thot\u00eb: \u201cPasha Allahun, jo, o Zot!\u201d M\u00eb pas sjellin nj\u00ebrin prej banor\u00ebve t\u00eb Xhenetit, q\u00eb m\u00eb shum\u00eb se gjith\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt ka p\u00ebrjetuar v\u00ebshtir\u00ebsi n\u00eb dynja. E fusin n\u00eb Xhenet, e pastaj e nxjerrin dhe i thon\u00eb: \u201cO biri i Ademit, a ke par\u00eb ndonj\u00eb t\u00eb keqe ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb? A ke p\u00ebrjetuar ndonj\u00eb t\u00eb keqe ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb?\u201d Ai thot\u00eb: \u201cPasha Allahun, jo, o Zot! As kam par\u00eb ndonj\u00eb t\u00eb keqe, as kam p\u00ebrjetuar ndonj\u00eb t\u00eb keqe ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb!\u201d<\/em>[2]<\/sup><\/a><\/p>\n At\u00ebher\u00eb \u00e7far\u00eb vlere na paska dynjaja, p\u00ebrfshir\u00eb gjith\u00eb at\u00eb q\u00eb gjendet n\u00eb t\u00eb, kur ve\u00e7 me nj\u00eb zhytje n\u00eb zjarr t\u00eb Xhehenemit harrohet \u00e7do gj\u00eb! E \u00e7far\u00eb t\u00eb themi p\u00ebr di\u00e7ka m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe?<\/p>\n \u00c7udi me njer\u00ebzit, t\u00eb cil\u00ebt epshi i \u00e7on n\u00eb rrug\u00eb t\u00eb err\u00ebta dhe t\u00eb vrazhda e p\u00ebrfundimin e kan\u00eb t\u00eb friksh\u00ebm n\u00eb t\u00eb dyja bot\u00ebt. \u00c7udi sesi vuajtjen n\u00eb dy bot\u00ebt e blejn\u00eb me furin\u00eb e pamatur t\u00eb epshit, t\u00eb cilin shum\u00eb shpejt e harrojn\u00eb dhe, n\u00eb fund, u mbetet vet\u00ebm keqardhja.<\/p>\n Dr. Muhamed ed Duvejshi<\/p>\n Nga arabishtja: Irfan JAHIU<\/p>\n (Pjes\u00eb nga libri: \u201cE TILL\u00cb ISHTE JETA IME (Memoaret e nj\u00eb vajze)\u201d \u2013 i p\u00ebrkthyer n\u00eb gjuh\u00ebn shqipe)<\/p>\n [1]<\/a> Revista \u201cPasqyra e umetit\u201d, botuar m\u00eb 22.7.1987.<\/p>\n